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sunday i couldn't find soy milk but instead i got a half gallon of 100% whole vitamin D milk
is that right? it sounds weird
i got it to make some ice cream maybe
anyway i made cookies, perfect cookies, finally the most perfect cookies
peanut butter and chocolate chips and oatmeal
so yeah i've been drinking milk like crazy since then, it's almost gone
and yum it's good
i figure i'll get a couple more sheets of cookies worth out of the jug
ug i should only bake the number my tummy can comfortably hold though
it's easy to forget in the heat of the moment

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today my manager asked if i'd mind switching my days off and i almost had a cow
but then i thought about it and realized i was being shortsighted
and a control freak
i get attached to routine
they want me to take friday and that means whenever my saturday off comes around i'll have a long weekend
so it seems like a good idea just for that reason

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my room is a mess and i didn't break out the sewing machine last weekend
at least i was productive with other house stuff
usually i just can't decide what to do from my list of things to do
so i get easily distracted
or i can't bear to do any thing at all
why do i do this???
i wonder if it matters why

my sister has two kids and a husband and two dogs and she works 60 hour weeks
i don't see how she does it
i can't imagine
i'm afraid i'm a mess

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