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crap
what am i doing?
i'm hungry and my head hurts from must and there's too much stuff in my house again and i want him home now so i can sleep

estate sales kind of freak me out a little
it took several hours to set in this time but now i'm thinking about dying and everything that's left and where does it all go and isn't is wierd how so much of life is left but it's not the same

russell is in his grandmother's house now
she and her husband built it
the family is going to sell it and they wonder if someone will choose to tear it down

my mother still lives in the house where she was born
it will be hard to see it go

i think alot about what will be left of me and where it will end up
and what to send off and to who as i go

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