rmt: (Default)
.

distracting myself with shoes for [livejournal.com profile] imeldas

.

Read more... )
.
rmt: (Default)
.

my father came over for dinner tonight and i laughed without sarcasm for the first time in his presence in probably well over five years

he was talking about treating himself to a nice black cashmere v neck sweater, a high v neck, from sam's club on his birthday
and then a dinner with some high school friends when he wore it with a white dress shirt underneath
he said
it's a nice look
and i cracked up out loud
and he said what? it's a nice look for me
picture a cross between columbo, harvey keitel and robert blake saying this
and i really could have laughed alot longer but i was embarassed to be charmed or something
like when you're still mad at someone you don't want to give them the pleasure of the approval
because i'm so on a hair trigger with him, things are so tense and plus everything he says is so predictable usually
the fact that i've never heard him say this before was part of what made it so funny
and that he sounded like carson on queer eye
my father should have been a character actor

.
rmt: (Default)
.

the prospect of seeing my father has almost become a phobia
i really need to get a handle on this somehow

.
rmt: (Default)



a lovely craft day last sunday got me making jewelry again

.





.

i'm going to open an etsy shop
for real!
is this name good?

glassflower

i wanted to use tartflower as my made things name but it has been pointed out to me that it could possibly come across as suggestive.
you know what i mean?
if you don't maybe he was wrong.

would like to offer other name suggestions?
i will gift you with a necklace if i use it
but i can't promise picking one
i may use this one or my just my name
but i thought it would be fun to get input anyway

.

we got a fire pit for valentine's day
one small fire last night, it needs a couple small ones to cure the terra cotta
another one tonight after work i hope
a fire almost instantly puts me in a better mood
the only thing better than a fire is a fire and snow
my scarf still smells like it a little
i want to get a little book light so i can read out there
and a tent

.
rmt: (Default)
.

i wrapped my niece and nephew's holiday presents today!
that's hannukah, christmas, new year's and valentine's day.
it's ok they're young enough not to notice.

.

i have some songs for you

particularly mr [livejournal.com profile] cecilseaside
because i found a belle and sebastian song i like!
http://s46.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3CFISPRQTTXSQ0U8SL17COFBIK
maybe the tides are turning

so i give you an elvis song to return the potential unexpected joy
http://s46.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=3CFISPRQTTXSQ0U8SL17COFBIK

and elo to make up for it if that one doesn't take
http://s49.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=37SNS2TMZS48G1GZF6GR7MTSQF

non elvis lovers, i will keep trying with the elvis
if you don't love elvis you haven't heard much
that's what i say

.

i'd like to get up and take a shower in the morning
i say that now
could i get a wake up call please?
i will keep my new kheil's scrub and toner in my mind as inspiration
i thought i was splurging but i realize now i think it's cheaper than neutrogena!
without the offensive advertising and much nicer packaging and smells!
mmm cucumber.

.

let's see, about insomnia
or allergies?
i have a headache
and i'm hungry

i'm having a bad hair week and i have to get a new driver's liscense next week.
scary but with potential because the last one was really terrible
i've taken lots of self portraits since then so maybe it'll be better

.

i'm thinking of starting a livejournal for ebay finds
i'm always bookmarking things i can't bid on so maybe i should share the love
should the posts have a theme or should it be a free for all?
both?

here's a teaser...

kaj franck heart bowls



Kaj Franck - against throwawayism

"Finnish designer Kaj Franck (1911-1989) rethought tableware over 50 years ago. Our homes are full of dishes that we rarely if ever use - his idea was to replace them with a few carefully thought-out items..."


from
http://www.iittala.com/designor/web/iittalawww.nsf/pages/iittala!OpenDocument&LANG=en

more
http://www.finnishdesign.fi/designerbio?id=946518

and this!
http://www.fintoys.com/frank.html

ebay auction
http://cgi.ebay.com/Kaj-Franck-Finel-Enamel-Heart-Bowl-x2-Danish-Modern_W0QQitemZ6250804258QQcategoryZ14897QQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem

.
rmt: (Default)
.

this guy clocked out last week and never showed for his next shift
i warned my boss of his flakiness and time proved me right
he's on my list
because of him i'm on friday and saturday nights at least through march
not what i signed up for!!
i knew this would happen
my only hope is lots more work during the day
my march goal is overtime
that might get me demoted from the line

this could really make me a wreck but maybe that's negative thinking?
i'm so irritated.

.
rmt: (Default)


.

hey [livejournal.com profile] bixa!
look!

.



.

i cracked it the week before last but it was a rainy week so last week i moved it to a different window but the curtain covered it and i forgot to water it for a week
yesterday morning i remembered and moved it to the kitchen window where i'll see it every day and gave it a little water and by yesterday afternoon there were sprouts!
it's hard to tell here but there are three
i'll try for a clearer picture next time!

.



.

daffodils are 1.99 at kroger this week!
i'm spring cleaning and growing herbs and our dogwood is sprouting pink
but now it's winter again and i can't seem to get warm

.

rmt: (Default)
.

i've been doing alot of spring cleaning
hence the photo scanning and taking
and drumroll please, ebaying!

i've got two pretty 50's beaded cardigans and some cute mod shoes here
http://search.ebay.com/_W0QQfgtpZ1QQfrppZ25QQsassZdressingroom

i've been doing ok on delegating to go items
not nearly as well as i'd like but i'm making slow progress
just moving things out that i already know i'm ready to part with will be a big improvement at least
in a way it's really good that i have so little space here

but then i went and bought this tonight!
eep!



i guess it'll go where those two sweaters and that pair of shoes came from
heh.
i was pretty torn because the old ones are so much cuter but this one's in top working order
but now i'm torn again
i can't decide, i may sell it and buy an old one before it's all said and done

i think i remember making filmstrips in my 5th grade art class but i can't remember how we did it
magic markers?
i wish i could remember
it's 35mm film though, could i make them just taking pictures i wonder?

.
rmt: (Default)


.

then and now

.



.



.

my 7th birthday
her name is sheeba
we were inseperable can you tell?
except for that time i droppped her in a mud puddle
although cumulatively i can't say that was the worst of it
there is still some white under her ears!
i like to spread all her fur out from in front of her eyes but it looks funny like someone who usually wears glasses or a sheepdog shaved for the summer
she used to have a tail wire and a bell
i carried her by the middle so she's out of stuffing there
and once she had surgery on her chin
but only the opening up part, no stitching back together like mine
my mother was embarassed and tried a replacement sheeba some years later
poor kitty i can't even remember her name

.

rmt: (Default)
.

i worked tonight, just subbing this friday and next

working on the line makes me a crazy person!
especially when i have to share my station
i don't want to think about what happens when i'm not around
it's all bad news
except i'm a control freak and no one notices anything's wrong
someone go order an apple gingersnap waffle and tell me if it's warm all the way through and if there's too much ice cream on top!

and now i'm all reliving the horror of feeling frazzled in front of the incompetent guy
that is so annoying, the reliving the horror part and the ridiculousness of giving a shit at all what he thinks of my competence
he's not truly incompetent he just likes to smoke alot and doesn't use timers and talks alot about his great restaurant career but doesn't seem to give a shit about what he's doing
i got the feeling he was all relaxed tonight and living it up because he was working with the girl
i just hate working with people that aren't at least a little bit obsessive compulsive about what they're doing

only the rare tuna scraps with habenero sauce almost made it all worth it

.
rmt: (Default)
.

LJ Interests meme results



  1. bob dylan:
    BOB DYLAN!
    i'm finally listening to these bootleg series cd's that my friend made me 5 years ago
    what was i waiting for?
    i have no idea but what a nice thing to rediscover all shiny and new this week
  2. cutting my hair:
    my life has changed for the better since i started cutting my own hair

  3. ginger:
    i like fresh ginger in desserts especially
  4. kermit the frog:
    KERMIT THE FROG!
    kermit goes deep
    my 3rd grade best friend that dumped me dressed up as miss piggy and sang rainbow connection with kermit on her shoulder for our 5th grade talent show
    i dressed up as miss piggy with a borrowed kermit on my shoulder for halloween, too many years later and safely out of town at my dad's house
    i finally got my own kermit, my first ebay purchase!
    http://www.flickr.com/photos/18099828@N00/10027417/in/set-247866/

  5. marc chagall:
    the fiddler was in my grandmother's kitchen when we lived with her
    it creeped me out when i was little but i couldn't stop looking, unlike the lifelike clown couple in the basement across from my bed
    anyway, after she died i realized i really like this painting and now it's mine
    every time i look at it i see something new
    i like his work alot
  6. new american paintings:
    i love this magazine but it's too expensive for me
    i look at every new issue in the bookstore and borrow pens to write down the artists i like on scraps of paper i tend to lose track of
  7. pretty magazines:
    my new favorite
    http://www.poplifemagazine.com/
  8. shift meals:
    free food!
    really good free food!
    i used to live on these
    the only bad thing about working day shifts, no shift meals
    this is the first restaurant that does an official family meal
    the kitchen guys cook for everyone buffet style every night before service

  9. suspension of disbelief:
    in good stories and in life sometimes
  10. very long showers:
    i would take naps in there if they made body pillows for the shower

Enter your LJ user name, and 10 interests will be selected from your interest list.





.
rmt: (Default)
.

fun from [livejournal.com profile] banshee

.

Project Runway Challenge - LiveJournal Edition

One week. One complete outfit, top to bottom. That's what we've got. Your budget could be $100 or $1.50. Doesn't matter.
No surgeries, though - we start from bare-bones materials (fabric, yarn, whatever) to finished pieces. Nothing from 2002, either - an entirely new creation. Bonus points for not working off a pattern!
The finished piece should speak of your creative process/identity as best as possible.
Post pics of yourself (or model of your choice) wearing the ensemble by Wednesday, January 25th at midnight.

I don't even know if we should vote or anything - really this is just about pushing yourself to create something for yourself.

So...who's in? Spread the word if you are!


.

i'm thinking of something but i will probably be cheating!

.
rmt: (Default)


.

look it's snowing! tonight and that's always good

.



.

this is my wierdest accidental picture ever
there are a few more here
http://www.flickr.com/photos/18099828@N00/?saved=1

.

and thank you
it was so nice reading all your nice words yesterday
feeling not so alone is a true comfort

.

rmt: (Default)
.

more fours

.

four things you learned too late
-that addicts like anyone vulnerable enought to like them back so don't be taken in, don't even be flattered
-that being so miserable with him isn't because i must love him too much to leave it's because i lost myself a long time ago and it's been time to go since our third date
-sunscreen is my friend
-the birth control pill is my friend

four deaths that have affected your life
-(edit for being more private)
-my mother's mother
-my cat ribbon
-my cat without a name

four religions you've identified with
-i'm half jew
-that's
-about
-it but maybe parts of buddism or paganism

four parties you'll never forget
-the one in highschool with my favorite crush of all time and he touched my back and i was wearing a rabbit suit and he dropped me off at my friend's house because i was too scared to see if he'd kiss me goodnight (and that was it then it was over)
-the one in college with my friends shooting bottle rockets at each other and skinny dipping at the lake and dancing with harley bikers at some house being built out in the boonies (maybe these were all different parties but they seem like the same one in hindsight)
-the one that i bought the donna karen layered slip dress for just to impress my stupid boss who had another date but ended up in a hotel room with me to drunk to be worth it (and he wasn't worth it anyway)
-the one with russell at our house and with my coworkers who didn't show up till 3am (just as we finally decided to go to bed)

four injuries requiring the emergency room
-getting stitches after cutting my chin open falling on the ice next to our house while my parents watched the '76 olympics on tv
-that's
-about
-it

four people you miss
-my sister
-amy
-patrick
-my gradeschool art teacher

four mistakes you'll never regret (at least ever again)
-not making cheerleader in junior high
-getting fired from a job that made me miserable
-breaking up with a therapist that wasn't a good fit
-never speaking to someone again because i would never ever get anything postitive out of it

four people I'd be trapped on a desert island with
-russell
-my dog
-my sister
-ted leo

.
rmt: (Default)
.

sometimes i find myself speaking words i don't intend in order to entertain or connect or flatter in some way
and sometimes i find myself speaking words i don't intend in order to protect or defend myself or to lash out in blind frustration
i wish i could take them all back
i hope the former are forgotten and the latter are forgiven

.

i worry about getting fired
i also daydream about quitting
and then i have a good day
today was all three
i wonder about tomorrow

.

i'm still writing in my journal but i'm a day behind
i'm writing in pencil so i don't get as embarassed
this way whatever i've written doesn't jump off the page back into my head quite so violently
and i can erase
i hate crossing stuff out and making a mess

.
rmt: (Default)
.

more meme

.

-four jobs you've had in your life
pastry chef
picture framer
line cook
photo lab girl

-four movies you could watch over and over
any woody allen movie except the old slapstick ones
down by law
foul play
the spanish prisoner

-four places you've lived
mguire air force base in new jersey
columbia tn
oxford ms
nashville

-four teevee shows you love to watch
project runway
isaac mizrahi
girlfriends
starting over

-four places you've been on vacation
the only real vacation i ever had was in los angeles with russell but he had to work some
the summer after 9th grade i went to europe with my french class but i don't count that for some reason
my dad used to drive my sister from tennessee to new york in the summers, stopping along the way
i guess san francisco and south through big sur but a wedding was involved or tuscon and the grand canyon but family was involved, these are all together because i forget they weren't all on the same trip

-four websites you visit daily
livejournal
ebay
flickr
egullet but not daily really


-four of your favorite foods
sushi
seared scallops
spaghetti with meatballs
vietnamese pork sandwiches

-four places you'd rather be
sleeping
in the shower
on vacation anywhere without obligations and with russell
walking a dog

-four albums you can't live without
elvis costello with and without the attractions/i can't pick just one
bob dylan/i can't pick just one
ted leo & the pharmacists/hearts of oak
marvin gaye/the soulful moods of marvin gaye

-four magazines you read
poplife/a new really good interior magazine i just found this month
new yorker
elle decor uk
venus

-four comics you read
marlys
chris ware's one legged girl
cat and girl
i still love old bloom county

-four cars you've owned
82 buick skylark/my first car at 23
84 toyota tercel which i hated i think i killed it on purpose
87 peugot wagon
90 volvo wagon

.
rmt: (Default)
.

name 5 things that you adore secretly (or publicly) but think are childish (not that there's anything wrong with that)

1. sticker collecting
i have my and my sister's sticker books from the 80's and have been known to scour ebay for the stickers i remember but are missing

2. swingsets
i need one, and not one with the seats that squish your thighs, i favor the plank style seat

3. school supplies
i want to smell the erasers but they package them up too tight
i'm looking out for my old trapper keeper with the pony and horse and a pink notebook with little girl pictures that were rubbable, kind of like fashion plates

4. hello kitty and similar themed cute stuff
i wonder if i will grow out of my deer painting

5. glitter
certain glitter and certain things that are glittery
there is good and bad glitter, there are lots of rules but i'd need lots of pictures to explain

.
rmt: (Default)
.

so far this year...

i am having lots of insomnia
not waking up early enough
journal writing on paper every day
planning a craft day
meeting new girls
taking yoko to the dog park and the people park
eating lots of grapefruit and bacon
working on reprogramming my work brain
practicing more outward awareness in my relationship and being nicer to my boyfriend
thinking about spring planting
living in a fairly clean house and car
contemplating the confusing nature of my crush habits
attempting to let go of my ego when it isn't serving me well
cooking for new and old friends
watching/hearing live banjo at the staton inn
enjoying some odd springlike and very windy january weather

.
rmt: (Default)


.

remains of the day

.



.

my dogs have pretty much ignored these things until last month
i was on a mission to find quiet durable inexpensive chew toys
i started playing the classic danglethethingabovethedoghead to get the endlessly amusing (to me at least) funnyairchompingdogmouthnoise
then yoko started going to find it even before she went to her food
it took two or three weeks for the first round to be destroyed
now she's got it down to a couple of hours
if only i had a wide angle you'd see the rest of the scattered remains
luckily she's not interested in swallowing a la the infamous greatyellowpompombarfincident of 2004

.

rmt: (Default)


.



http://www.livejournal.com/userinfo.bml?user=embodiment

.

i like this idea
i bought some small journals today
they have cardboard covers and thin lined paper and a pocket
i might write in pencil so i can erase, i can't decide
i'm scared to go back and look at my plans for this year
too few things to cross off

.

Page generated Sep. 24th, 2017 06:52 am
Powered by Dreamwidth Studios